I am not on this site anywhere near as much as I used to be. Life, work and day to day problems seem to take up more of my time than ever before. A big part are the ups and downs of loving and helping a 17 year old daughter I had in my late thirties find her way. She is, on a daily basis, a handful, a puzzle, frustrating, confusing, fragile. But also often at the same time, loving, considerate, wonderfully caring, enlightening, hardworking and with a tendency to see the best in most situations. As get I get older she keeps me young. In short I couldn't even imagine where I would be without her.
I do remember that you had a little girl who wasn't well. I am so, so sorry for your loss Mod. My thoughts and prayers to you and your family that you will find the strength and peace you need to come through this.